You say “for no obvious reasons”, Bruce calls it “non-causal”. This same shit has always been a part of his life too. And for a long time he tried to find “reasons” for it, just to try and understand why you’re going along through life nicely when suddenly for no obvious reasons you’re down in the dumps. Because sometimes there is a triggger, it’s caused by a person or brought on by a situation or whatever. And that makes sense so we just accept it. But when it hits you out of nowhere, we try to rationalize it. We start searching for reasons that are not there, looking for something to blame. Bruce finally learned that you don’t always need a reason. When you suffer from depression, your fucked up brain chemistry can just flick a switch inside your head at random.
And it doesn’t matter how much money you have. Wealth, success, physical health, family, friends.. You can have all these & still get depressed. Bruce ‘has it all’ but still suffers. He’s made great progress with treatment, but he still sometimes sinks into a deep depression. Because it’s a medical illness. No one is immune. So take any guilt you may be feeling (“But I have so much to be grateful for! I have no right to feel this way!”) and throw it all out the window. Because it’s not your fault. You can’t help it. It’s not by choice.
You go through periods of being good, then something stimulates it. The clock, some memory. You never know. The mind wants to link all your feelings to a cause. I’m feeling that because I’m doing this or because that happened. You’re going along fine, and then boom, it hits you. Things that just come from way down in the well. Completely noncausal. But it’s part of your DNA, part of the way your body cycles. You manage it, you learn and evolve, but another recognition you gotta have is that these are the cards you were dealt. These things are never going to be out of your life. You gotta be constantly vigilant and realistic about these things.
— Bruce Springsteen
It’s happened before & it’ll probably happen again. You got through it before & you can beat the motherfucker again.
ain’t that right #EmergencyBruce?